Where do dreams go from here?

Tuesday, April 07, 2009

I went back to CBSS last thursday to collect the o-level testimonial and certificate. I WAS SOOOO HAPPY to be back at SCH !!!! BUt sadly my schoolmates and classmates were not there anymore. SO it feels weird going back and everyone was sort of glazing at YIng xuan and I who are in a different uniform from them. THe security wanted to follow me to go in to take the cert and wanted me to go out of the school , after collecting. I managed to sneak into the school and went straight to library to find library auntie. Ying xuan and I complain that she 's the best librarian ever who communicate with the students, back at our school, the librarian can't ne comapared to her. Then we chatted for a while.

HOW I MISS THOSE DAYS WHEN chun hui, jia ping and I slack during our duties , how kirti, ying xuan , jia ping and I used to go to the library to study. ANd the time we spent in the library with our classmates and schoolmates before proceeding to the hall for o-level papers. THe library may not be that fantastic but yet,it's the best library in the world.

NExt stop, hall where the speech day rehersal is going on. MAngaged to talk to ms tan and she told me that chi literature had to be memorize .Then MRs Kwong came over to ask about my subject combination. Say hello to ms verona and mr yeo.
YIng xuan came down from band room and we proceed to find ms ang .

We had a longgg chat with ms ang . I asked her about GP and she told us that she wasn't very good at GP as well. SHe said she was better in narrative writing.... ANd so was ying xuan and I. We complain to ms ang about jc life ( although I complain more ) and how we sort of regret choosing jc.

MS ang told us that some of her friends who went on to university, regret not choosing jc. I understand that jc is preparing students for university but the stress level is very high. Life is busy with work , you feel tired everyday. My sleeping time is the only time I can relax and I miss everything about CBSS from teachers to canteen food and ESPECIALLY 4E1 ; though it's been 2 months at SRJC. MS ang told us that once we get pass this 2 years , everything would be fine . Same thing as what mrs ng and mr wong said. But well, saying is easier than doing.

I feel as if happiness had disappeared from my life. THe thoughts of going to university and the thoughts of my 4 gals and teachers are the things that helps me to survive a day at school.

I know I still got a long way to go... I choose this route myself and I got get through it by hook or by crook. I have no other choice , do I ? Others are proceeding on with life and I have to get myself to adjust to my life now. No matter how much I hate it , life still goes on.

Hopefully kirti, ying xuan , siew kiang and I can survive through... All the best to us ;)

Dreams ended @ --*6:27 PM*--